Some years are hard to say goodbye to, while other years can’t wrap themselves up quick enough.
2017 is a year I am happy to see come to an end, if I am honest. If I had to choose one word to describe my year, it would be “struggle.” As a verb, struggle (with) means “having difficulty handling or coping with.” As a noun, I would choose “a determined effort under difficulties” as the best definition for my struggle in 2017.
Struggling with the challenges of living in an older home (the plumber has been to my house 7 times in one year).
Struggling to find a church home.
Struggling to find my place within that church home.
Struggling to find some answers with the help of a counselor.
Struggling with two car accidents.
Struggling to help my kids adjust (and since learning that this is their struggle, not mine).
Struggling with connection.
Struggling in my time with The Lord (Are you there, Lord? And yes, He was and is.)
Struggling with my weight (can anyone say, “emotional eater” ?!?)
There were victories and growth all along the way, but if I absolutely had to boil it down to one word, “struggle” would be the one.
Josh challenged us to come up with some goals for the New Year. Spiritual goals, physical goals, mental goals and relationship goals. As I have thought about these areas, the spiritual goals came to me the clearest. I plan to go back to reading through the Bible and memorizing scripture. When I think back on the last decade or so of my life, these two things spur me on in my walk more than anything else.
I signed up for the Bible Project read-through-the-Bible-plan on YouVersion. I went ahead and started because I wanted to! And I was so encouraged by the large doses of God’s Word. Reminded that God’s Word is POWERFUL and able to change people and circumstances. Reminded of His faithfulness in the midst of unfaithful human beings. Reminded that His ways are always right and good and perfect.
A new blank journal always helps, too!
I plan to choose a memory verse on the 1st and 15th of each month. And I bought my index spiral yesterday and put Psalm 40:16-17 on the first card:
“Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; Let those who love Your salvation say continually, ‘The LORD be magnified!’ Since I am afflicted and needy, let the Lord be mindful of me. You are my help and my deliverer; Do not delay, O my God.”
I look back at the old scripture memory cards from years past and it makes me excited about this coming year!
I am thankful for the struggles in my life…they make me stronger and are a part of life! But I am also looking forward to experiencing more joy in my heart as a result of seeking The Lord with a revived effort. It’s all His grace in my life, and for that I am so thankful!
All the best to each of you as we wrap up 2017 and look forward to 2018!