Renewing my mind
I love God’s Word. The past 8 or 9 months have been the most interesting times, in that Josh and I have never been so unsure of the future. For the most part, we have lived in such a way that we sort of kept things “under our control,” or so we thought. Not to say we were never caught by surprise by certain events of life.
“Josh, I’m pregnant…again…Ruby is only 6 months old!!!”
I remember sitting in the realtors office when we signed papers on our first home on our second anniversary and looking at each other like, “What are we doing?”
For the most part, though, our life has been very simple, very safe. We didn’t need “mountain-moving faith” because nothing needed moving. All went just about as well as it could have. Nothing tragic has happened over these past months, but we have been stretched in ways we never thought about…more inward than outward, though I think outward is coming. I love that at the beginning of our journey I was all about the outward stuff. “OK, God. We’ve heard you clearly. Now, just keep speaking. Sell our house, move us back, all will be back to normal. Sounds like a plan.” Not so. The Lord puts such priority on His inward work, the changing of our heart, the molding of our soul to be all His. I’m not saying I’m there…I am saying that I am actively on the journey. Some days are beautiful. Some days are horribly ugly. What I am finding out about these oh, so uncertain days is that His Word and His Spirit are all I have. They really are. I have never been quite so aware of this truth.
He isn’t DOING anything I am asking Him to do as far as our circumstances are concerned.
He IS SPEAKING to me through His Word. He is reminding me of Who He is, of Whose I am. It’s all I have these days in the way of direction or guidance.
I’ve been participating in Beth Moore’s scripture memory team this year, and I am enjoying it so much. She talked on her blog how crazy that is was February already. January was gone in a snap, but she said that we were at least two more scripture verses the richer because of it! So true. The days came and went; His Word is eternal, and I have been blessed as I meditated on it and memorized it and used it many days when I needed a reminder of Who God is and what I should do during those days.
Here are my three verses so far this year. (We choose a new one on the 1st and 15th of each month.)
Jan.1: Seek the Lord and His strength; Seek His face continually.” Psalm 105:4
Jan. 15: The Lord is my Light and my Salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the Defense of my life; Whom shall I dread?” Psalm 27:1
Feb. 1: Praise the Lord! How blessed is the man who fears the Lord, who greatly delights in His commandments. He will not fear evil tidings; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. Psalm 112:1,7
I can’t wait to add a new one next week. The challenge is, obviously, to keep going back and meditating on previous verses as you add on month after month. I’ll keep you posted!! In the meantime, the question is worth evaluating: What’s on your mind?